mmm life is very stagnant and boring right now and kind of unsatisfying
but i am, more than ever, finding the joy in the simple things

like good books
good music
good friends

srsrly..i have the coolest crew on the planettttttt, its undeniable.
haaaa

thanksgiving was awkwardddddd, as always.

mmmcollegeisgonnabeawesome


l ♥ v e


^^^^ how awesome is that?!?!? ha

so its been quite possibly forever since i posted in here
which is how i begin every post these days.

anyway, point is, i think i'm goign to start writing in here again, just for the hell of it. its crazyyy times so i might as well document it.

boys are ridiculously stupid.


i got into college.


the end.

so i haven't posted in forever.
but uh...

everything is just really good right now.
as long as i don't think to much
and talk myself out of everything being good

as usual.

this whole..writing college essays during junior year all of a sudden really had me frazzled

and i wish i had a car already

and I'm really enjoying everything that we're assigned to read right now

and my grades are okay

and i'm feeling goodddddddd

okay. that's about all the update ive got right now

adiosbudddd

sometimes little 2nd grade-recess-compliments are just the best kind

especially when they're not expected

i think i could learn to love you.

"gravity isn't responsible
for people falling in love."
- Albert Einstein.<3


and now i go back to studying my brains off

♠

Quotes That Keep Me Pumped

[hope you like them too] ...and i don't know how to do lj cuts so...i'm sorry

"The Arts have an incredible potential to heal the individual, and to heal communities at times of need and turmoil. BUT.... perhaps even more important, the Arts can empower us to become agents ourselves towards the healing and empowerment of others."
Artslynx

I want to lay up like that, to float unstructured, without ambition or anxiety. I want to inhabit my life like a porch.
-divine secrets of the yaya sisterhood

"...people are just people,
They shouldn't make you nervous.
The world is everlasting,
It's coming and it's going.
If you don't toss your plastic,
The streets won't be so plastic.
And if you kiss somebody,
Then both of you'll get practice."
-regina spektor

Like a shoebox of photographs with sepia-toned loving
Love is the answer at least for most of the questions in my heart
Like why are we here? And where do we go? And how come it’s so hard?
It’s not always easy and sometimes life can be deceiving
I’ll tell you one thing, it’s always better when we’re together
-Jack Johnson

"We've spent so much time judging what other people created that we've created very little of our own...We use criticism as fake participation."
Choke by Chuck Palahniuk.

"Well maybe you should just drink a lot less coffee,
And never ever watch the ten o'clock news,
Maybe you should kiss someone nice,
Or lick a rock,
Or both."
-regina spektor

"Live life to the point of tears"
-Camus

Every ten year-old enemy soldier/ Thinks falling bombs are shooting stars sometimes/But she doesn't make wishes on them./When she wishes, she wishes for less ways to wish for/More ways to work toward it/Ten year-old enemy soldier/Our falling bombs are her shooting stars/
-Metric "IOU"

We live on front porches and swing life away,
We get by just fine here on minimum wage
If love is a labor I'll slave till the end,
I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand....until you hold my hand
-Rise Against “Swing Life Away”

i should have been a pair of ragged claws
scuttling across the floors of silent seas
-T.S. Eliot

"We're all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars"

"They always say time changes things, but you actually have to change them yourself."
--Andy Warhol

"It is better to fail in originality than to succeed in imitation."
-- Herman Melville

"The brain is like a muscle. When we think well, we feel good. Understanding is a kind of ecstacy."

"A day without laughter is a day wasted"
-Charlie Chaplin

"In general, life is good. In specific, it is excellent" - Dan Eldon

“What we play is life” –Louis Armstrong

“Every blade of grass has its Angel that bends over it and whispers, “Grow, grow.” –The Talmud

“What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters, compared to what lies within us.” –Ralph Waldo Emerson

“A mind too active is no mind at all.” –Theodore Roosevelt

“Words are a form of action, capable of influencing change.” –Ingrid Bengis

“At the height of laughter, the universe is flung into a kaleidoscope of new possibilities.” –Jean Houston

“Every child is an artist. The problem is how to remain an artist once he grows up.” –Pablo Picasso

“The true mystery of the world is the visible, not the invisible.” –Oscar Wilde

“To live a creative life, we must lose our fear of being wrong” –Joseph Chilton Pearce

“The meeting of two personalities is like the contact of two chemical substances: if there is any reaction, both are transformed.” –C.G. Jung

“Go confidently in the direction of your dreams! Live the life you’ve imagined. As you simplify your life, the laws of the universe will be simpler.” –Henry David Thoreau

“Every time we say Let there be! In any form, something happens.” –Stella Terrill Mann

“Undoubtedly, we become what we envisage.” –Claude M. Bristol

“Learn to get in touch with the silence within yourself and know that everything in this life has a purpose.” –Elisabeth Kubler-Ross

“Slow down and enjoy life. It’s not only the scenery you miss by going to fast—you also miss the sense of where you are going and why.” –Eddie Cantor

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same.” –Marianne Williamson

theatre


is just so rewarding.

into the woods was amazing. totally worth it.

so ive realized...

i really like high school
and i'm glad i still have time as a highschooler
because
guess what
i dont WANT to go to college yet
i want to be a kid
and do highschool things
like run around the quad
and play twister in milstens room
i don't care how awesome it is
i'll wait
and when i get there
ill love it all the same
probably more
but until then

i'm liking where i'm attttt.

so i'm procrastinating the 200 or so pages i have to read in Hitler so i'll recap the past week or so.

-Glenbrooks was good on account of I was really petrified but ended up suprising myself. But the downsides were many: not being able to go into the city, certain people/coaches not being there for a good laugh, I loved having to get up at 5 to get to the airport just a little before 6 to catch a 9:20 flight. seriously. it was really awesome. i loved having to go to rehearsal. I loved fighting with burmy the next day to make up a test. really. i did. sometimes forensics causes more problems than are imaginable.
- oh, and my ipod broke. again. i realized this after i left it in my hotel room for a day and a half. It made the sad ipod face. its one sad face. So i'm living off of cd's. 2 of which i bought in the last weekend (the new copeland with the xtra cd and the new hush sound)..they're both amazing. hush sound more than copeland for me right now. but both fabulous
-i find myself living vicariously through others. i dont know whether this is a good or a bad thing.
-i find myself posting on livejournal more often. i dont know whether this is a good or a bad thing.
-tuesday night = happy feet with the katieys. they make me happy.
-wed = chillllllll. i really dont think i did anything. it was amazing.
-thurs = thanksgiving = my family and i ate crab legs instead of turkey..and samosas = whatt.
-fri = outlet shopping = primo fun timez with da mom && new clothes && my prom dress. now all i need is a date lol
-yesterday = homework && malling it up && a really satisfying din at panera's. delish.
-today = homeworkkkk && watching sisterhood of the traveling pants lolsaur. i have so much work left to do.

ooh

++ mi madredre is letting me cancel out of the SAT this weekend so my weekend isnt as obscenely busy as it once was

++ COME SEE INTO THE WOODS!!!
friday @ 7:30
saturday @ 2:00 and 7:30
sunday @ 5:00

i promise it's worth it. mostly because chris wideman is the cow. =D

so. just to get myself organized..

homework that's left:
english: read death of a salesman
find rough draft of essay
chemistry: read the chapter and work on the packet..ugh.
history: read till chapter 10 in Hitler and do study guide (220 ish pages)

okay. that's a lot.
lets get it starteddd

ps. what should i do for my bday guyzz?